Farewells and Tourette

In this post, I would like to talk about farewells and the Tourette. I have trouble with farewells. Farewells are a change and as I mentioned before. Changes and Tourette don’t go well together. There is a group that I go to every week in Beer Sheva that is called “Zavta”. Every year the group leader and some of the guides are changed, and this is hard for me. Even though I have great friends that help me in these situations, the Tourette always raises its head and makes it difficult for me. I always say to myself that I will get through it and won’t let the Tourette win, but I usually don’t do well with farewell events, and this frustrates me. Friends always tell me that farewells are a part of life and every group leader brings a different perspective and insight, but I always get attached to the group leaders, and I remember them a long time after they leave. I get attached easily to people because by nature I am a friendly person, so it’s easier for me to find friends. My mom always says that I am the friendly person in the family and that I know everyone. Because of that, I get attached to the group leaders and a special bond is created that helps me talk freely with them. They are always supporting me and have useful insights. In farewell events, the Tourette always raises its head in greater intensity. When this happens, I try to do breathing exercises and relax by gathering strength from my inner self and by thinking of Sde Boker and Midreshet Ben Gurion which are my safe places. I also usually listen to music before the events. Also in romantic relationships, I have a problem, and I am afraid to get into this because of the fear of what will happen if it won’t succeed. I am always thinking about what the other side will think about the Tourette and if it will intimidate her. I am afraid because of the heartbreak that will come because of the Tourette. For me, the Tourette is no more an obstacle, and I learned to live with it, but not all females will accept it. I know that it’s a part of life and will be a part of the relationship but this part is hard for me, and I hate it. When I started the blog, I realised that it’s easier for me to write the things that I want to say than by saying them aloud. When I write, it’s only me and the computer, and it makes it easier for me to let the things out. I didn’t think that I would feel like that but I fell in love with the writing, and it does me good to share my thoughts and my feelings. In conclusion, I know that farewells are a part of life and its one of the toughest parts that I need to deal with. With me, it's a little tougher because of the Tourette. I don’t try to use it as an excuse but as a fact that I need to live with -  another obstacle that I need to overcome in my dealing with the Tourette. It’s tough, but I know that I have the inner strength to overcome it.