In this post, I would like to discuss meditation and how it affects Tourette.
A lot of my friends tell me that I need to try to do meditation or yoga, which will help me relax my system and deal with Tourette's. A few times, I wanted to do it in my dance therapy group in Beer Sheva. We do meditation at the end of every activity. Every time I try to do it, my tics appear at a higher intensity, which interferes with my ability to do the meditation. Lately, I can’t get my soul into complete relaxation because every time that I try, Tourette raises its head and interferes, and it frustrates me every time. I want to experience a state of complete relaxation which I think will significantly help me, but I don’t succeed.
There is a point in the movie “The Road Within” where the hero says you can’t tell a person with Tourette's to relax because Tourette won’t let him. In my opinion, he is right, and I sympathize with this sentence altogether. The Tourette will always be there, and I found that in meditation, the Tourette will use it to raise its head. My soul is in a constant war between the Tourette and trying to have an everyday life. Lately, I have found the internal strength to deal with it in my life, but when I am doing meditation, I am losing this ability.
The Tourette and the tics are becoming worse and pretty noticeable. It also happens to me a lot before I go to bed; sometimes, I need to take valium to relax. Because of that, I never succeed in doing meditation or activities that require self-relaxation. I believe that only when I get to a place where I can channel my inner strength to gather the self-relaxation will I be able to perform these activities. I am looking for the day when I will be able to go to a place of self-relaxation without Tourette's raising its head and interfering. I am looking for a place where I can meditate, which I think will significantly help me.
Now, I am not at this place, but I am working on it, and I hope that I am on the right path. I want to believe that I will get there someday, to the place where I will be able to do self-relaxation without Tourette's raising its head, and that it will be soon.
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