In this post, I would like to talk about my experience in the escape room.
This was a new experience for me and like every new experience, my first instinct was to flee and not try out a new experience. This time the Tourette also struck heavily, making me question myself and my ability to cope with the challenge that was in front of me. Unlike my previous attempts, I didn’t let it affect and control me. I told myself that I needed to cope with this challenge in order to prove to myself that I can cope with the Tourette and that it wouldn’t beat and control me.
A few minutes before we entered the escape room, I began to question my ability and different scenarios started to run through my head as to what might happen and how it will affect me. My pressure level began to rise and reached a critical mass. My tics began to appear in increased intensity and I felt like a volcano that was about to erupt. My first impulse started to take charge of me, but unlike previous times, my inner strength awoke with a new determination to fight and deal with the challenge and not flee.
I took a couple of breaths and told myself that I am strong enough to deal with the Tourette and the escape room. I knew that if I gave up and sought to flee that I would be disappointed in myself and it would alway accompany me. The fact that my friends and my guide would be there helped me reach the decision that I would cope with the challenge. From that moment, I channelled all of my thoughts to become positive thoughts and decided to deal with the situation without thinking of the Tourette and its aspects. The moment that we entered the escape room, all my thoughts were on the riddles and the challenges that we had inside the room and the Tourette wasn’t present at that time, but I was present and I was relaxed and confident in myself. At the end of the activity, I felt a feeling of satisfaction and pride that I was able to beat the Tourette, which accompanied me all evening.
The knowing that I didn’t cave into my first impulse gives me a lot of satisfaction and strength for the next challenges. I know that I have in me the mental strength to deal with new situations and experiences and that I am stronger than the Tourette. I know that I will have more challenges ahead of me that will test me in a test against my first instinct but I proved to myself that I can fight it and win.
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